#539.
Being completely enveloped in examinations, exam speak, study score and atar kinda sucks. Well it's not so bad actually, especially I act as if I don't have exams. Still not studying and it's already started. A little deeply worrying but what can I do.

Saw Herms yesterday! In amongst making some delicious breakfast, serving beer and rewatching Limitless, received a lovely exam care package! A huge box with a jumbo bag of Lindt chocolate, some Anytime lemon candy, some lychee drinks, a huge can of Hello Panda and a pretty little motivational book. Very sweet, literally. Looks like exam period's gonna be packin on a few extra pounds at this rate.

Sorry (to myself) for not dropping by as often as I hoped to.
Good night!

#538.
Do I even study? What is studying.. Can you eat it????

This week has been an unceremonious week of practise exams and trials and tribulations and ugh why... 
Today was okay though, the weather was super duper hot, signalling the beginning of the intense summer ahead (which I am dreading). Headed to my methods exam in shorts, for the first time in over half a year! After a dreadful two hours and fifteen minutes, it was over!!!!!! It was a little bit of an eye opener I guess, should really start studying for methods....

Otherwise, today was a potentially a nice day... Had Nandos with T earlier... Was nice :) Night time weather is so lovely, especially like, summer nights! So cool, especially with the breeze. :)

Anyway, all this about weather is quite boring, hopefully I'll swing by another time.
See ya blogger. :)

#537.
Can I just start by saying, holy hell there's less than a month til exams.
That being said, I still cannot find the motivation to get off my ass and do some real studying. All I've managed to persuade myself to do is half a physics exam now, half later, one or two short answer now, some more later. I'm so slack that I'm beginning to worry about myself.
This time last year I was motivated. Well maybe 'motivated' isn't a great choice of word, but I could sit down and apply myself. Now, I find myself continuously avoiding my work and when I do sit down to do it, I can't and get discouraged. How do I expect to do well if I can't even study? Ugh, I am my own enemy.

The only thing that's keeping my head above water is what lies beyond exams. I mean, when I actually get there it might not be everything I imagined, or even everything I anticipated, but it's gotta be better than this. I just want to be able to do nothing and not feel guilty. I just wanna be able to sit and read or drink tea or learn some useless ass song with no repercussions.

Whatever man, it'll be over before I know it.

#537.
It's been a long week. I was hoping today, no matter how limited the time span was, you'd be able to help me pick myself back up. You told me you'd fixed it.

I guess I have no right to feel this way because most of it's my fault, but I really can't help it. I'm upset, I guess. But then I have this longing feeling too, I don't know.

I had to try surprisingly hard to stop myself from crying on the way home. It was really cold. I felt really desolate.
I wonder if you heard me leave. I wonder if you're just as upset as I am for the way I handled things. God, I don't know what to feel.

#536.
Hello, my old friend.
I haven't been around since summer, and now it's winter. Which is a bit surreal. Reading the old posts, reliving life sort of in retrospect is pretty cool, hence why I'm back tapping away. I always thought of you, my blog as trying to make my life sound interesting for others, but now that I think about it, it really is only interesting to me.
Reading how I've grown through my teenage years. How I've matured and grown to see things in a different light.
I'd really like to say I'll come by more regularly but I'm not really sure if that's a promise I can make.

Last post I said this year would be hard. Not only that, but it would be full of hard work. I got the first part right but finding myself procrastinating when there's two months til exams that may very well define my place in life for the next however long is kind of daunting.

Life has been pretty kind over the past few months. Feels like not only me, but everyone around me is growing up. Filling in their own skin and the shoes destined to be theirs. My friends are finding their direction and that's all well and good and I'm really happy for them but then I look at myself and my outstanding existential crisis and wonder where I'll be in five years. Or maybe even one year.

I think I'm getting too deep now. Too philosophical. I'll try to come back soon.
G'night. :)

#535.
Hey there blogger. Tien here, reporting from the end of my last ever summer holidays before I have to go back to high school. How nostalgic.

Well these holidays have been pretty smooth, working every second day, almost, if not more. That's okay though, I feel as if work has become easier to bear, hours fly by, I guess all I needed was routine.
I've been feeling an incredible amount of eagerness, keenness, excitedness, nostalgia and a lot of things found in between those various emotions. I have reason to believe that all of it is brought on by the thought of my final year at high school and the mysterious, unwritten moments that lie beyond it.

Travelling, meeting new people, appreciating life a lot more. I feel as if my life is on the verge of beginning. I love this feeling. 
This next year is going to be tough nuts. Busting balls and working hard towards the pinnacle before combustion. When it does explode though, things will be different.

At least I hope they will be.

#534.
Things have been really good lately!
These past few weeks have been an absolute joy to experience, even though there have been low points, I feel as if everything's falling into place and going as I plan it, for once!

Just to highlight the past few days, Saturday was my first day off after finishing Viet school the week before, rolled around in bed for hours before deciding to make dinner with M. Made a leg of lamb roast and watched movies with her on the couch until like, 1AM. Good times!

Yesterday was with Herms. Had breakfast down at DeGraves St again, shared a 'full breakfast' and had our respective coffees. Wandered around, got some errands ran and done, played a bit of not-so competitive pool (cause we both suck), drank some absolutely  amazing juice and had a little trek around visitng Pudgy Panda and the asian shop we usually go to in order to continue our tradition of buying and trying dubious asian drinks.

Went back to his place to be given the best present ever a week early :3
A bear named Oscar, some choccies, Prada's Candy fragrance and the promise of a Polaroid camera. My present's gonna suck compared to his..

Anyway! Great few days. :3

#533.
Kind of feels like I've been stuck in the middle of things lately. I'm not sure what.. But I know it's something. Exams soon, feeling pretty unmotivated, but that really isn't anything new. 

A few things this week showed me that things hardly ever turn out the way I expect them to. Even if it's the simplest thing, it could go completely off the rails. 

I don't know what I'm on about, thought I might just pop in.
Fuck off summer.
G'night.

#532.
Today's a high after a series of lows.
Well I'd like to think so.

After nearly a week and a half of intense nostalgia amongst other crappy feelings, finally found some time to hang with Herms. :3
Oh yeah, had an excursion today to various religious centres/buildings/places of worship. Whatever we want to call them. Was fun, was eye opening and stereotype killin. Good times. :) Spent most of the day eating though, haha!
After school, made a mad dash for Herms', greeted by Bee at the door before I even knocked! After some hellos and friendly licks, it was time to get down to the nitty gritty..:  Chills! :3
Listened to some cool stuff, a song called Zoey Deschanel, listened to a twenty second track he made, which was beyond sick and really just layed around and photowhored.

Well even if it doesn't sound like a high after a low, that's what it was for me.
Still got to find a jar to work on for the end of November! >:/
See you soon though, blog. :)

#531.
Since today sort of sucked I think I'll start with yesterday.

Started work at seven, counting down the hours to the end of my shift at twelve. Got driven to Ginifer Station at twelve, caught the bus to Herms' and onwards to Highpoint. Herms missed the bus... But that's okay, I just got off and went back to his place for about ten minutes before the next bus, his mum fed us chicken. :3
Got back on the bus, got to Highpoint, did a bit of light shopping, bought some stuff from Dotti, Glue and La Senza. Had some lunch then went back home with his sister and her friend. Showed Herms my purchases, chilled, took photos with A and then went home. Very good day.

Today sucked, work from seven to seven. Dead. Feet hurt. I hate people. G'night. :)

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