#206.
I'm kind of stuck between yes and no with you. I know you've asked the inevitable question, that I should have known was coming since the first moment I started acting like that towards you. Somehow back then I knew that I was going to say yes. But now I'm just really not so sure. I know that I'm a bitch for making you hover on the crack between heartbreak and 'us' but I don't want to get into something that's not right from the start.

I don't want to get into something just because it's there, and I can and it will make me feel better about myself. I want this to happen, if it does, because I feel everything I should towards you, and I know you feel the same way. That whole mutual love spiel. Maybe I should just wait until I get to spend more time with you. But then to me, it just feels like I'm making you wait for me. Which I don't want, because as much as I need the time to think it over, you don't need to waste time on me if I end up saying no.

I want to but then I don't want to. I'm really just caught up in everything lately. Srry in advance if I end up hurting you. Because just know, that I don't mean to. It's just the last time I got into a relationship unarmed for the worst, it completely fucked up and tumbled down on him and I. And I don't want the same happening to you. Because you mean more to me than that.

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