#29.
Ever had a 'moment'? A split second where you just want to scream, thrash, kick and hit things? Oh my Lord, I could have sworn, that everything was perfect just a few days ago. And then I had to go and get myself in such deep shit with so many people who mean so much to me. Those of you who've had a 'moment' will know what I mean.
Life is such a pain. You finally think you get it right, just before everything bad starts snowballing in on you, and you end up with a big mess that you use to refer to as your life.I use to tell myself to pretend to be happy, and after everyone catches your happy, you'll catch it for real off them, and be happy too. But what happens now? What happens when you can't find it in you to even pretend to be happy. But then again, that's what I get. There are so many things I wish I could take back, so many things that make me wonder what would have happened if I had just left it alone. I'll never know.
I wanna forgive you. But what comes after that? You pissing me off again, you saying things that put me in another 'moment'? I don't know. I've tried, oh trust me. I've definitely tried.
And what happens when you hate someone so much, but you don't want them to hate you, if that's even logical. I'm probably some psychopath who thinks differently from everyone else, because I don't see anyone getting into the same situation I'm in. 
Someone told me it's my life, and I've got to choose what path to take. But all the paths look like a dead end from here, how am I supposed to choose?

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