#172.

The last letter;
Day 30. Your reflection in the mirror.

You. Yes you, don't pretend to look away.
Why is it that you do the things you do? You push and pull and then push people away. You're insecure, you're stupid, you don't think things through. You concoct stupid little plans to 'fix up' what you may have enough dignity to call your life. You act like someone else, because you want to impress. To be frank, you're a big, fat, lying bitch.
Thing is, it's not just you're a bitch. It's that you know what you're doing isn't right, yet you continue to do it. You push on, and keep a straight face as so not to be picked up by any surrounding peers. You lie, you pretend, you'd do anything at any cost to avoid the heartbreak, the attention. But honestly, wouldn't you just rather just letting it all drop sometimes? Do you really think that hiding a truth that inconveniences you will get you out of trouble? No. The answer is bloody fucking no.
You, my friend, need to take a stand. You need to learn to not care what other people say. And not the 'I don't care what people say,' that ends with you crying in a corner because you've kept it all bottled up so long, it's the kind that legitimately does not care what other stupid faggots say.
You need to get over it. You need to build yourself a mother fucking bridge and get over the boys that screw you over. Scrap that. Why are you letting them screw you over in the first place? It's because you're insecure. Stop being so insecure.
What has the past got to do with anything? You really should just pretend what's happened never happened unless someone goes out of their way to bring it up. Do not reminisce, as that will only lead to tears, to pursuit, and to pain.


Work out your own life. Stop depending on others. That's how to start.
How to end is up to yourself.
Fuck thinking with your heart, use your bloody common sense once in a while. Not everything ends up happy and beautiful. Deal.




Side note, the thirty day letter challenge really was a beautiful journey through pasts, presents and possibly future. I now have insight on who I think about and why. It was great having you, tdlc. <3

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